Magical Tipsy Toes

I had a new mantra. “When you think about it, make yourself forget about it”

It worked for a while. It was ok for a while. When I leave in the morning, it slips off me. I take it out and I put it far away. Because keeping it on makes me a different person. I become someone I hate. And soon everybody else will see it and ……
So it’s kept far away. It worked for a week or two. But slowly and carefully I know its pushing and tugging its way out.

“I want nothing to do with her”
I tell myself it’s alright. But I’m in pain.

“She’s not normal”
I tell myself it’s all good. But it gets harder to cope.

“Leave her be, I can’t be bothered anymore. I don’t want to know anything”
I tell myself to myself to hang on for a while. But I’m tired.

I don’t regret. So why does it make me cry every night? Because everything inside me looks like everything I hate.

ColourfulShoes & I finally have photos of our office sitting positions. Accidents accidentally happened while taking the photographs. Especially when ColourfulShoes is in heels. And DAMN!!!! Those heels!! But nobody was seriously injured…so it’s all cool.

Exhibit A - ColourfulShoes Desk
In the photo you will see a couple of vitamin bottles, a few photographs aligned on the sticky board…and if you guys really really look, you will find a bottle of Orange Emlusion. ColourfulShoes poison. The Peep Hole is where we communicate secretly with little notes and sweets.

Exhibit B - Sharkbait’s Desk
Now in the photo…you will see that I am actually a neat person. Everything messy is all piled up next to Mr M&M. The keeper of all things and toys. My enemies are also in this photo. When ColourfulShoes is angry/annoyed/irritated/blah..she shifts them down the The Peep Hole and cuts all communication link with me.

So while taking these shots in the office, a colleague SnackFriend offered to take the two us in one shot. So here you go….

Exhibit C -

After all these smiling and cleaning of desks…we headed down to Brewerkz with the other colleagues. Ms Smiles last day in office. So we decided to send her off in good beer style… Gonna miss her quite a bit. ColourfulShoes said she’s gonna be lonely…but she doesn’t know I have a plan.

Exhibit D -

It was a nice day. After all, everyday is a nice day for pie. Isn’t it?

-Jellybean- says:
babe, you still up?

-Jellybean- says:
(she sends me a youtube site, a wrong one and yet the perfect one)

-Jellybean- says:
maybe this will keep you entertained

And entertained it did!!!

So my darling Jellybean….thank you. I forgot all about the photos that were lost. I forgot that London needed to be saved in a cd…I forgot everything else…and I’ve been grinning ever since. Oh what the heck…I’m gonna watch it again!!!!!!!