Magical Tipsy Toes

Once upon a time there was a little butterfly whose name was Bananafly. Bananafly had a friend…Goldie. They were like good friends, they chilled together, played together and sometimes played tricks on each other.

One day, Bananfaly was just taking a stroll when she bumped into Goldie. Goldie looked upset. She said she was doing alright, but her eyes were tired. Bananafly could see that she felt a little tired but empty. So Bananafly sat her down by the old Banyan tree and made her some Raspberry Fruit tea just the the way Goldie liked. Goldie was quiet at first. She didn’t want to say anything…but after her fifth cup of tea, Goldie started her story.

She got a new project to do in FairyLand and it’s really nothing like she’s done before. In all her other projects, she had her good fairy friends around her. Her fairy friends would help her and guide her and they would even hold her back from doing stupid things when it came to her personal life, they didn’t need to, but they did it anyway.

This one, this project is different for her though, they want her to build a castle out of a toadstool and this time she doesn’t have a fairy friends to help her, this time she’s alone.

Goldie starts crying right into her cup of Raspberry Fruit. Bananafly tried to comfort her and told her all about the BigGuyFairy. Who would always be with her and He would help her through it. Bananafly showed her the wonders of the BigGuyFairy and He is special and that all Goldie needed to do was to have a little faith. She smile a little and it warmed Bananafly right to her heart.

But what Goldie told Bananafly next broke her heart. She told Bananafly about Brownie and how he broke her heart. How he was mean sometimes and made hear things that she really didn’t need too. Bananafly always knew just how much Goldie loved Brownie, Bananafly knew that. She had always known. That’s when Bananafly heart started to hurt. Her head started to spin. It started to hurt bad.

And as Goldie explained she didn’t mind Brownie doing the things he did to her and why that no matter what, she’ll always love him…Bananafly went crazy inside and the urge to go find Brownie and beat the living shit out of him, but instead, with tears threatening to spill, Bananafly held Goldie’s hand undee the only Banyan tree and told her that no matter what, she’ll be there for her and that things in the head that whizzes by need time to dissolve. For a long while after, Goldie relaxed…more at peace with herself as Bananafly held her hand protectively. Bananafly smiled….and as she watched Goldie walk away with a little skip in her step….she whispered amongst the trees, sending a couple of gnomes to burn down Brownie’s house. Not to hurt him….but to make him wake up!

Sometimes, in my head, my mind…it makes it better, the pain…even if it’s just for a while.

So I got tagged by 7oneders. Who’s been kindly waiting for me to post..heh cause I took a while doing this tag. I’m sorry.
Six strange things about myself.

1) I think just socks and boxers are hot.

2) I have a strange attraction to heels. (note: I don’t own any)

3) don’t eat chips from the bag. I like to pour it out, preferably on the table or white paper

4) Whenever I eat tic-tacs, it registers in my head that I need to finish the whole box in one sitting. If not, I’m edgy and I keep thinking about it.

5) I think the answer insomnia and headaches a bath and tiger balm.

6) When putting on a pair of jeans, I must put the right leg in first. If I forget and put the left leg instead, I take it out and do it all over again. Properly.

And for the first time, I am not going to tag anybody at all. Nope. I am resisting. I am strong. I can resist the urge…control it.

Resisting.hard.to.control.oneself.some.one.help.hold.me.back.

It’s finally Friday. I don’t think I’ve ever been this happy that weekend has finally arrived. It gets tough everyday for strange reasons at the workplace. As much as my head tells me to just run out as fast as I can…something is holding me back. I can’t seem to figure why though.

I miss the Aloha.E girls…it was really good seeing all four of them, Sonia, Randi, Ann and Lisa. I realized just how much I miss them when I saw them trooping in together. I miss everything about them. I miss the way conversations are on hold just because one of us is on the phone or needed to pee. I miss the way Sonia and I get each other and Lisa gives us knowing looks while Ann has this blur look and Randi tries to get us to repeat what we just said. I miss Randi making funny strange noises or asking me if I’m hungry right after we’ve had breakfast in the morning. I miss Ann and Lisa arguing over silly things and hearing them laughing out loud suddenly. I miss Lisa. Her quirky addiction to coffee or her sudden hunger pangs. I miss the way we sit in the meeting room and we’re thinking about the same thing and we start to smile and grin at each other. And you, joining us made it even more wonderful.

Late night conversations over teh-tarik and satay(which I enjoyed much and plenty) got me thinking when I came home. I finally got understood what this “You loved like you should but lived like you shouldn’t.”means