Posted in postsecret on May 22nd, 2007

I need to find a way to believe.
I need to get it back.
I need to remember how it felt to believe in whirpool of magic and sparkles. That its not completely gone and there is some left, at least.
I need to believe that my heart isn’t naive. That its ok to jump into a pretty picture. That these moments of happiness exist without any lies.
I need to believe so my heart doesn’t feel lost and betrayed.
Because when I believe, it gives me a little hope.
That maybe, someday….I’d get my chance to get rid of being lonely.
I get afraid sometimes. Afraid that I will lose all that is before me. Afraid that the more you know what goes on in my head…the more the need to move away is imperative.
I get foolish sometimes. I think I can pretend really well. Sometimes I think a certain way and I do certain things, its really because I have foolish thoughts.
I get stupid sometimes. Because I am afraid that my foolishness is transparent, its stupid that it scares me that all these things will be found out.
And here I thought I was the spiffy one.