bright ideas
It’s about 5 plus in the morning. And I can’t seem to fall asleep. I haven’t really been sleeping much for the past three weeks. It’s not that I don’t want too, believe me…I would give anything to just concuss and head off to dream land, but unfortunately I just can’t. My mind is going crazy. Maybe it’s because I lack sleep that’s why it’s going way too fast for my own good.
There are many things that going on in the head right about now.
A slight change, a certain step away. It’s a gut feeling. Maybe I’m wrong. I’m worried I’m right.
There are reasons why I do the things I do. Because I don’t want to regret never telling you or doing them…and I do it just so you’d see what I see.
A little game is being played. I like game but I’m beginning to get that the rules are quite difficult to follow. You will ask in time to come. You may think it’s because of pride. But it really isn’t. But I’m not who you want me to be. That’s why it should be left the way it is now.
The shoulder is killing the shit outta me. I can’t lift it and I can’t feel anything. Maybe I really need to go get it checked good and proper. Or maybe I can just snap it out of my body and then the pain will disappear. How about that?
It’s been emptied out for a while. I’m trying to patch it back. It gets difficult day by day. I don’t think about it much but when I do, it hits me. And wave after wave, I feel the need to burst. But I can’t. Some things must be kept under control.
Dear Sleep,
You’re a funny bastard aren’t you? I’m tired. Its night time and I’m still awake. Why? Why are you so selfish. Let me sleep, sleep. Please. I want to sleep like a kid and not think about anything but sleep. Come on…you know you want to take over. Quick ok, I’m going to try. I promise I’ll just let you lull me in.
Peace,
Sharkbait.
