Magical Tipsy Toes

For the first time in a really really long while my heart is in shambles. Shambles because I wanted so much to prove you wrong. To show you that sometimes these things will find its way back. Because I wanted to believe in what you once believed in too.

So maybe I needed to believe. To see what you see.

Strange how these things work. Because while trying my darnest to prove you wrong, I learnt what it was like being in that situation I never allowed myself to be in. Giving all of yourself and never expecting anything in return.

As much as you say it’s alright…your eyes tell me differently.

Then again, who am I to say anything about relationships…when I haven’t been in one for the past 7-8 years.

I only learnt about these funny things called relationships through what each one of you have been through and I try to understand why some things work a certain way. Or why some things need not be said at all. Or why sometimes, your heart behaves the way it does by putting myself in your shoes.

But what I will never understand is how love can make you choose between what makes you, you and the person you’ve given your heart too. Why should there be a choice baffles the fuck out of me.

I guess it’s something I need to learn and accept. It’s hard. And that’s why I’m scared. That’s why my heart hurts when I think about it.

But listen…I promise this….

You go ahead
Walk further down the road.
Hold the hand beside you.
Love with your all of your heart.
Take a chance.
Give your all if you need.
It’s ok.
Yes,it will hurt. I can’t deny that.
But it’ll be ok as long as I know your heart is smiling and your mind at peace.
You need not look back to check.
Even if you forget.
Because I’m not going anywhere.
I got your back.
Always. Anytime, anywhere…

After all that’s the best kind of love I can offer. The only kind.