Magical Tipsy Toes

I took a path, a path that seemed scary and unknown from a distance. But with a little nudge, with at length conversations, I found myself staring at the path, with excitement and awe. The need to run the opposite direction was strong, but with plenty of reassurance and promises that it will be alright, a leap of faith in the right direction. I walked down the path with a padded suit to protect my heart.

I just didn’t realize the protective covering faded away as I walked deeper into the pathway.

I think I dreamt you up.

You with the suspenders, you with the basketball hands. You with those damn eyes. You with that laugh and grin. You with the gardening and the stories. You with the words and game plan. You, who managed to let me fly to a place filled with what I only see in others.

Why?

I know who it is now. How is it that my heart is slightly comforted you know her and yet, you don’t

You. I dreamt you up. My heart dreamt you up.

From a memory that never was suppose to be, I dreamt you up, and against my better judgement, I fell in love.

A little torn apart I am.
First time’s always a charm.
A little bit of this,
A little bit of that,
That’s all it took
to get me hooked.

After a couple you get pickled,
And right there and then I’m tickled.
Listen up, listen clear
Sorry boy I’m all blurred.

Bake me a pie and we’ll see,
Just how long you’ll be
Walls have their shield,
I’m pretty sure you’ll yield
But I’ll tell you this now,
You kinda got me wowed.

I feel like I’m in a boat with no sail and I’m just drifting by. I’m in a boat of nothingness and when I gaze up towards the sky, the clouds get darker and meaner by the minute.

I feel like I’m in a boat with no direction or purpose. I’m in a boat made of wood. Slowly, I feel the side of the boat rotting away.

I feel like I’m in a boat, trying my darnest to stay afloat. I learned how to look. I read all the directions. I still can’t turn right.

I feel like I’m in a boat. And I’m getting sea-sick with all the rapid moments. I need to stay still. Take off my socks and shoes and just lay down…..but I can’t do that anymore, because it isn’t safe.