layers and then reasons
There are some things in life that happen to you and when you look back at it, you laugh. For an example, a sprained ankle or a car door slammed finger, or maybe an insect invasion in your house or a fall down the stairs due to freakishly large roach spotted at the car. Sometimes these things happen because they were meant to add some spice and laughter. Maybe it’s a sign telling you to lighten up and laugh hysterically at yourself.
Then there are some things, which you forget so easily. Like why was I at Sizzler’s a long time ago having dinner? Or like I knew I wore that outfit, but why? Who were those kids who like eating bananas in the school bus? Or was Carebears first then Ewoks? Or did Smurfs come on first?
Of course, with those memories you forget so easily, there are those few that you remember. These kinds of memories are usually the tricky ones. The ones that you want to forget, but because it’s made you or changed you in a way…they kind stay in your mind. Sometimes, when you least expect it, it flashes past your mind and you remember. You remember like it was just yesterday and your heart sinks.
That’s why I do the things I do. I know what you’re thinking. I know what you feel about this. But there are reasons for it. You said what you wanted to say. I heard them and I didn’t say a thing.
For this one, do not fight me on this. Do not question why it is the way it is. It just is. I can’t keep explaining and picking up bits and pieces. Please do not throw it in my face over and over. Because I’m at edge. The very tip. Bastard child, I may be. A fucked up anal person. I get you. But don’t throw it in my face.
Because this time, I won’t keep quiet.
Posted by:sharkbait
Smurfs. Smurfs were first.
I think.
The memories that seem to have the biggest influence aren’t the happy ones, but the traumatic ones. Happy memories are as fleeting as the happiness that the remembered events created. Traumatic events are forever. They may ease somewhat, but they never lose their power. That’s why they define us. We are the sum of our traumatic events, which we deal with by striving to create the next happy memory.
May you be successful in creating an endless string of happy memories, Sharkbait.