Magical Tipsy Toes

I’m sitting across her, watching her eat her pancakes. Cutting them into neat triangles, dipping them into the maple syrup as she talked about her day. I like listening to her. I smile to myself and I realize just how much she means to me, still. She looks different. At peace with herself. Whenever she smiles, her eyes smile too. Her laughter’s still the same…but yet there was something different about her.

I miss you. A little.

All the stories just start rolling out and I remember how I used to tell her almost every single thing. Even if it was something stupid, I felt the need to tell her. I knew why I stopped doing that. But somehow, I had forgotten when I met her.

You could say, a little too much.

She still makes me laugh. She still makes my head strangely calm. We spoke about the past. About our recent travels. The funnies that was constant in out lives. The new job she just got. The job that I left. The people in her life. The people in mine.

A little too often.

Remembering the plans we made. We thought they were unbreakable. Remembering how we thought we needed to keep searching…Remembering the mistakes we knew we were making. The chances we were waiting for. Just to move where we needed to move.

And a little more.

As we sat down and down and watched the world go by, laughing, enjoying the silence and just being like how it used be….she looked at me. And for that spilt second I thought she saw right through me. That’s when she told me.

Each day.

The date had been set. The venue booked. That’s when I realized why she looked different. She had a secret. A secret that made her glow and grin like a little girl. Like the girl I met a long time ago.

And so I drank my cup of coffee as she walked away, hand in hand. Laughing as she turned around, waving goodbye and giving one of her winks. “Soon…we’ll meet soon!” she called out. And for a while, I held on to that promise. Just for a little while, before letting it go.

Sometimes if you’re lucky, someone comes into your life who’ll take a place in your heart that no one else can fill. Sometimes if you’re lucky, you get to experience happiness, hurt and the feeling of forever. Sometimes if you’re lucky, you’ll see that there will be a time in your life where you lose control of the mind and heart….and love seeps in and takes over.

Sometimes if you’re lucky, you’ll know its enough.

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