standing on the edge
I had a new mantra. “When you think about it, make yourself forget about itâ€
It worked for a while. It was ok for a while. When I leave in the morning, it slips off me. I take it out and I put it far away. Because keeping it on makes me a different person. I become someone I hate. And soon everybody else will see it and ……
So it’s kept far away. It worked for a week or two. But slowly and carefully I know its pushing and tugging its way out.
“I want nothing to do with herâ€
I tell myself it’s alright. But I’m in pain.
I tell myself it’s alright. But I’m in pain.
“She’s not normalâ€
I tell myself it’s all good. But it gets harder to cope.
“Leave her be, I can’t be bothered anymore. I don’t want to know anythingâ€
I tell myself to myself to hang on for a while. But I’m tired.
I don’t regret. So why does it make me cry every night? Because everything inside me looks like everything I hate.
Posted by:sharkbait 
I don’t want you to be sad anymore my darling girl. Enough already.
I cannot tell you what or what not to do. Because I really don’t know.
But I don’t want you to feel that you have to pretend in front of me. Because that’s tiring on its own.
So just be whoever you want to be whenever you want to be.
I can’t make them stop. I can’t make your ears deaf to their voices. I can’t make you not feel pain. But i will try everyday to put a smile on your face.
I love you very much.
I can’t make you not feel pain or hear their voices either, but I can let you know that you are loved and that I did arrange a party to try and cheer you up. Please click here to come to the party.
It sounds like there are two of you … the one who copes and the one who is in pain. It’s like a battle going on inside you, as to which one is the captain, and which the deck hand.
Strangely, a ship can’t go anywhere without both of these. But I hope the one who copes can take command and steer the ship to safe harbor.
Dear sweet sharkbait. I don’t know what makes you sad so I won’t even pretend to understand. But please know that you have a lot of people that care for you and who want to see you not fret or be sad. But as is all things in life do what makes you happy and try not to worry bout the little things or big things that may came along. And remember those of us who are here for you no matter what. Sending you big hugs and a shoulder if you ever need it. Take care sweet sweet sharkbait. May you swim happily around. Much hugs. God Bless You
I echo all the other comments here. Remember, if you need a shoulder, Sharky … anytime. ((hugs))