Magical Tipsy Toes

First week of October is beginning to look good. Thank you Sup…if we didn’t meet by accident at Mustafa..I would not have known. One of the best gig I’ve been too. 2008 seems like one heck of artsy kinda of year.

I missed you too much today. So did she. She cried cause thoughts of you were consuming. Made worse by alcohol i guess. heh. She drinks and she remembers. I want too, so I can forget.

I’m not doing so well when it comes to you. I’m not ready to let go. For some reason I’m scared to let you go.

I am in the strangest funk.

My head and my heart feels zoned out.

You are in my thoughts more than you should be.

I feel horribly sad….I don’t want to feel or do anything but stay in bed till it’s safe.

My fears every night grow more and more everyday. It’s become a worrying addicition. And I’m terrified that its has that kind of power to do exactly that.

Little things now make me cry and feel so sad and then very angry.

Maybe it’s a weekly virus.

Well…one can only hope.

Another crazy month……